I have never in my life tried so hard to get with someone before. So, now, fuck it. If Brandon answers my text tomorrow morning, I’m laying everything out on the table. What do I have to lose? Nothing. Specifically, I’m saying “Alright, I don’t mean to make things awkward or serious, but I’m just a really blunt person, and I feel like things have been different since the last time we hooked up or whatever, and I’m not the type of girl that really cares, like, shit happens, haha, but I just wanted to make sure we were like, okay? hahahaha.”

What I really want to say is “You fucking prick, we hooked up twice, I probably said something in my drunk state of mind to scare you off, but let it go and just fucking hook up with me, asshole.”